Question Intervention

Interesting, never heard of that song or singer before. Lanie and Kayda worrying about why Carson called them in for something urgent, how they are greeted not helping them end the worry they are in trouble for something. Bwahahaha! Kayda just blurting that out, when will she learn, never give more information than asked for. Oh boy, Tansy displaying self destructive behavior lately. Tansy doesn't trust the counselors, plus doesn't talk as frequently or as in-depth as she needs to with Louis, not good.

Wakan Tanka yanking Kayda into dream space and telling Kayda what she needs to hear, take Tansy on a vision quest. A vision quest over the weekend until around Monday morning, and Hartford and Carson are agreeing to all Kayda's request. This is very serious, though after what she did to that one bully I can see why.

Oh boy, seeing Kayda and Lanie in those outfits with Mrs. Selkirk and Mrs. Nelson standing on either side of them, I would be worried. Bound her hands with a leather thong, and Tansy's bad joke almost doesn't get a response. A black mask for a blindfold, and Tansy calls out to Mustang to find out what they are doing, being told it is a vision quest, Hembleciya. And ouch, they talk to Mustang and it is a sacred thing so he can't talk to her again until her vision quest is concluded.

Lanie and Kayda won't talk, part of the ritual, oh boy. And she still thinks it is a joke, trying to lighten the mood, only to be met with silence once more. 20 minutes of travel like that to confuse her as to where she is, tries to find her friends emotions and is met with a sort-of psychic white-noise, yikes. All that and a sense of abandonment, it is going to get bad before it gets better, isn't it.

A silence spell and a shield to keep her from sensing their thoughts, Kayda thought of everything. Sweat lodge tomorrow and Lanie just has to be silly about it. A mildly hallucinogenic tea, having to make sure she gets water and Kayda protecting her in dream space. This is a true ordeal.

Ouch, fear like that due to no way of knowing how much time had passed, no reference to frame time, scary. Oh boy, starting to turn to mild distrust of Kayda and her ritual, not good.

What the what! Kayda says Tansy has to have that set of feelings fresh in her mind when they get into her visions. Show Tansy how her feelings change, all this so she can begin to unravel her current negative, subconscious behavior, intense. Risking Tansy having lingering resentment towards her to help save her, only a true friend.

After that night only to find out there is more to come, I understand how Tansy feels. Lanie and Kayda telling Tansy how far she is going, plus Louis showing up and pointing more things out, having to confront her subconscious thoughts. Her hidden feelings driving her in ways she isn't consciously aware of.

In the sweat lodge and Kayda getting a good look at Tansy for the first time.

"You like what you see?" Lanie asked with a smirk. She had seen Kayda staring a bit.

Hit with Tansy's looks, poor girl is lucky she didn't blush even brighter. And Tansy and Lanie teasing Kayda about flaunting her body, these 3 have too much fun together. Kayda trying to get the ritual along and right into a kiss from Tansy as she is talking, oh boy. And least she finally gets the ritual underway.

And now the special tea for Tansy, with Lanie and Kayda there to protect her while she is in a dream-like trance.

"So now we have a little fun while she's dreaming?" Lanie said suggestively, waggling her eyebrows.

Bwahahaha. Kayda in her dream space, while Lanie watches over her and keeps her hydrated, this is a really in-depth ritual.

The dream space is a grayish-white world without boundaries or features of any kind, that would freak me out. A golden eagle there to help guide her.

This is your hembleciya," the eagle said, and if eagles could grin, it was grinning at what it it considered a silly question. "Of course I know you. The question is, do you know yourself? Or is that why you're here?"

Her dreams, her fears, her hopes, what she loves, what she hates. That's a lot for someone to take in.

Left alone like that at 4 years old, that is criminal neglect. No wonder she has fear of abandonment, with people like that in her life treating a little girl this way. Resentment of her father and nanny, but not her mother, as she at least hugs her occasionally. The adults around her were twisted from that early age, it is a wonder Tansy didn't turn out even worse than she did.

That scene with the little piglet, all to determine what she thinks it means.

"Great," Tansy snorted unhappily. "My vision quest is a jigsaw puzzle."

The time Connie Goodkind tormented her with cruel names, and using an implied threat to get Tansy to lie, ugh. Forced to apologize and then tormented more by the bully, I would have wanted to get back at her somehow.

At least Kayda will be able to help her sort out what all the visions and memories mean if needed. A hummingbird flitting about from flower to flower, showing off its flying prowess as it does so. Then a peacock shows up and hides the hummingbird from view with its plumage, no matter where it moves. Now bees harass the poor hummingbird and force it to fly off, all metaphor and imagery. And once again no answer from the eagle, she has to figure out what it means to her.

Several hours in the trance now, Tansy comes out of it a little and Lanie gives her some water. And has to help her go pee, despite what Kayda said about her not needing to go due to the rituals so far. At least Lanie is taking it well, thinking this is what it will be like when she has kids someday.

Tansy memory of a time in Kahului Yacht Club protected race area, in a yacht race and annoyed at having to wear a life vest due to being a strong swimmer. Admiral's Cup and hoping her mom would be there this time, poor kid. And Connie Goodkind being a royal B once again. Big gamble by a little Tansy which pays off, 4 boat length lead, father tells her it is all about winning. And Connie cheats, while blocked from view by Tansy's sail she uses her boat hook to snag Tansy's trapeze line, causing the boat to be knocked over and Tansy to fall into the water, grrr, can't stand that girl. Didn't want to win, just wanted Tansy to lose, how petty.

Her father talking to her like that, not paying sailing lessons anymore, all just because she isn't winning. And listening to his new wife, over his own daughter, Theodore Walcutt needs a good hit upside the head to knock some sense into him. And manipulating him like that, have Tansy stay home for the summer, just because they are on their honeymoon, ugh. And he only cares if she wins, not if it is fun, really can't stand him.

Two otters playing tag, and Tansy wonders why, thinking they should be looking for food or something. She thinks all an animal does is mate and eat, what a sad life that would be. Tansy thinks life is survival of the fittest, kill or be killed, at least she ask if that is what it is.

Resting in a European castle, perfect for Tansy and her ancestry. Ouch, no food for Kayda either while Tansy is on the vision quest. A lot of issues to go through, that is an understatement. Rough time ahead, it hasn't already been rough, oh boy.

Westchester Montessori, and seeing what she looked like when she was younger is painful for Tansy. 4th grade and another girl with her, the description of that young boy, it can be no other than Trevor Goodkind. What, Tansy went over to say hi to Trevor, even though she hates Connie and Heather, his older sisters. A fake fall to slam into him, ouch, tormenting the younger brother for the sins of his older sisters.

Learned those skills by watching Connie and Heather, she has suffered like this for years, yet she subjects someone else to it just due to who they are related to. Tansy was already on the wrong path before she manifested. Bullied becoming the bully. At least current Tansy watched in disgust and horror, crying at the cruelty her younger self displayed.

Calling Trevor not a real boy, a sissy, just because he is small for his age, asking if he is a boy or a girl pretending to be a boy and to go put on a skirt. Even making sure the adults aren't watching, doing all this to get a reaction out of Trevor. Going to call him Trixie or Traci, called Trixie by Tansy, while current Tansy is made to watch. This is her vision quest, these memories are important to her for some reason, she needs understand why.

Taking a folder out of Trevor's backpack and putting it there, taking his homework and hiding it so he would get in trouble, she became what she hated that young. And the cleaning woman putting the homework in the folder on the teacher's desk, doesn't help he was scolded twice about it. Having to see what she did, painful for how she wishes to be now to watch.

A doe and her fawn grazing in a field, cute. Smart you can shape the events around you, her father is arrogant to believe that. A wolf suddenly chasing them but the doe and fawn have already bolted for the woods. Drawn towards the qualities of femininity and grace in the doe, yet the eagle says that when someone dreams of a deer, it means they are having difficulty accepting their female side, ouch.

Franklin Academy after the Diabliku kids being outed. Young Tansy planting stuff a bundle in Trevor's briefcase. Slipping from the bathroom into the crowd of kids to cover for herself. And she makes the contents of his briefcase spill out, a uniform skirt, ugh. And Young Tansy using that to teasing him about being a girl or just a sissy even more. She couldn't see how she became like those she hated, because it was a relative of her own bullies she was picking on she justified it to herself.

And now we jump to a point where Young Tansy manifested just 2 weeks ago from the sounds of it, taller, trimmer and more attractive in her own eyes. At Liliuokalani Academy for Girls and debutante match in polo, she calls her father daddy and he says she isn't a little girl anymore and will address him in an adult manner, ugh, let kids be kids! Afraid of being outed as having a mutant daughter, he cares more what it would do to his reputation than what would happen to Tansy.

Tango 2 years old then and her secret weapon in this match. And Brenda, just how many trophy wives has he gone through now, tries to act like she is really Tansy's mom, Tansy won't have that. And despite what Tansy said, raising her hand to strike her shows Brenda has a temper she needs to control. Heather got a modeling job in New York, while Connie twisted her ankle and is in the reviewing box, darn. A check from Bruce Goodkind being given to her father, he actually bet on the game, when they find out Tansy is a mutant it is going to cause a lot of trouble. And Tansy takes away that winning is everything.

And now we move to watching a little brown rabbit, as the eagle explains how the rabbit is humble, preys on nothing, but everything preys on it. Humble-of color, of noise, of movement, interesting. And Tansy takes away from this that her daddy was right, the meek don't inherit anything. Bad thing to take away from that.

Wendy, forth or fifth wife of Tansy's father, and ouch, can feel the chill radiating between those two. Anger and envy at a father wishing to talk with his daughter alone, Wendy has issues. Finding out she is a mutant and is getting prettier and thinner because of it, upset it isn't due to her diet and exercise. And those emotions and thoughts from her father on all those matters, what a self centered D-bag. 13 and being told to think of a nanny as an au pair personal assistant, oh brother. And already going to replace Wendy with the nanny who he has been cheating on her with, no shame at all, this man. And that vow to be useful to her father, that messed her up even more.

Guided tour like 'This is Your Life', that would just be silly. Ducks and geese and swans, oh my. Young Tansy and Isabella, her nanny at the time. Young Tansy wishes to see the swans due to the old fairy tale.

"The swan represents the power and understanding of self, including developing spiritual and intuitive abilities. And the swan is graceful in dealing with others."

Tansy thinking she is still a bitch, that she is being tormented by eagle instead of being aided with these memories. Understand who you were, who you are, and who you wish to be. Tall order. All those girls defending each other, this memory seems to be before Jadis and Mal got out outed. Arguing over poetry and Walt Whitman, definitely not normal little kids with those discussions. If only they could have remained friends, or renewed their friendship at Whateley. All those happy memories with Jadis, if they hadn't been outed I wonder how differently Tansy and Jadis might have turned out, especially Tansy.

Teaching Jadis how to ride horses, despite Jadis falling off the gelding 3 times now, ouch. The beginning of a good friendship, proof she wasn't so self-centered. Nice to see happy memories, never knew this about her and Jadis.

Oh boy, she was happy to see Jadis when they reunited at Whateley, but reacted badly to the devil bound inside Jadis. Freya and Maria aka Songbird when she was student, and Tansy denies Jadis was ever her friend, betraying her completely and outing Jadis and Dr. Diabolik's daughter, ouch. Tansy realizes she turned into those she hated and threw Jadis to the wolves, one of her most painful memories.

Who in moments of weakness give in to your frail, human nature because no one in your life showed you how to be a decent person! And even without that guidance, here you are trying to teach yourself! Why don't you give yourself the credit you deserve for recognizing your mistakes and seeking to make restitution for them?"

Someone had to say it to her. And thinking she is the monster her father, Heather, Connie, and Freya made her to be. You can't be a monster and feel this kind of guilt. And all this leads back to her blaming herself for not saving her mother, that her mother is sick because of her, ouch, right in the heart with that one.

And eagle takes her to see what is not her fault. Office of Marissa Walcutt, Assistant District Attorney. And Tansy tries to talk to her, asking if mommy can see her, painful to watch. Amy working too hard, told my Marissa she is going to work herself to death, tempting her with a healthy dinner at her place. All those cases behind, yikes, that is a ton of work. Sorority sister and best friend of Marissa and she's not leaving her there the whole weekend. Amy is Tansy's godmother and Marissa wants her to see more of her daughter.

Amy drove so they take her car, Tansy watching them drive along in New York with almost no traffic. Amy has a heart attack while driving, while Marissa tries to take control but Amy's leg is pinned against the accelerator and the car picked up speed. Yanking at the hand break but they were going too fast and went into a skid. Losing her best friend like that, plus injury in the accident.

Tansy in the a hospital room, her mother's head wrapped in bandage with a bloody spot over the right temple. 5 years old and this happened to her mom, Young Tansy sent out with her nanny while Marissa finds out Amy died from the heart attack, losing her best friend and vowing not to leave her husband and Tansy, that she stay healthy. Leaving current Tansy calling for Lanie and Kayda, asking for help to understand, darn it, got me tearing up and wanting to hug her.

Calling for help to understand, no one appears until Tansy thinks Kayda did, looking like Kayda yet not. Ptesanwi helps to explain all her memories and the spirit animals. The jackal represents someone who should have been close to her, but whose lessons have been damaging to her, her father. Ouch, not loved by her father, painful to admit to herself. The hummingbird and the otter, playful yet other animals didn't let them play. Peacock like Connie and Heather to her, the bees represent work, her dad's work never letting her play, the alligator like her father interrupted things when Tansy was trying to have fun. Those earlier scenes are making a lot more sense now.

She has to learn how to have fun, deer represents femininity, what happened to the deer is like her father whoring her out to advance his business, stealing her innocence. Never having community because her father taught her to use people, to prey on others. And she thinks she is like the swan, attacking viciously to protect her territory. Still learning and can choose what she wants to be, a good lesson for anyone.

This is part of the vision quest - not to tell you a pre-ordained path, but to help you find a path of your own choosing."

Interesting detail about the elk, her being told about how the badger acts in defense. Her way of life making Tansy not understand the natural order, like Tatanka the buffalo does.

"Can we," Tansy asked hesitantly, "can we...go see the hummingbird again? Please?"

Learn from any of the animal spirits she wishes to observe, now that is special. Awww, she wants to learn from so many of them and is afraid of having to choose. Kayda helping her, as part of her role as a shaman and be glad to help her, as that part of friendship, awww again.

It was some than Kayda's vision quest in some ways, and she can't talk about it with Lanie, kind of a doctor-patient confidentiality. Intense seems like an inadequate word to cover what Tansy just went through. Tansy happy for help understanding all that, plus Kayda assures her she isn't allowed to talk to anyone but the dreamer about the dreams and visions. It has to be Tansy's choice to share with others. The longhouse for dinner to finish the ceremony, good, bet Tansy's stomach can growl loud enough to wake a bear from 60 feet at this point. Monday morning just after sunrise, that took a lot longer than it felt.

"Now? Now I'm going to do something that I deserve but never did. I'm going to have fun!" Tansy told her friends with a tired smile, then became serious. "But first, I know now what I have to do. And I'll need Ms. Hartford's help to do it," she said grimly.

That sounds ominous, I'm guessing it has to do with her father.

And Tansy's mom transfered to Arkham Research Consortium up in New Hampshire, is this what Tansy did with Ms. Hartford's help. Wonder if she can get the help she needs finally, instead of being treated as a burden by those who take care of her.

And this story had a lot of intense moments, that is a lot of stuff we didn't know about Tansy and even seeing how her mother became the way she did due to losing her best friend that way. Glad she is on the path to true healing and choosing who she wants to be, not shaped by the likes of her bullies and her father. The only other story that had this much painful and intense moments packed into one piece was Would the Last One Out Please Turn Off the Lights. Now I just want to see how Tansy changes due to this and what she is going to do that needs to be done.