Question A shiny rock is lying on the floor

Greetings everyone- I am ShinyRock. I am new here in terms of actually participating rather then lurking as I typically do on websites that catch my interest. I discovered this site via tvtropes gender bender page back in high school. I wish I could say exactly when, or even what year but my memory being what it is that is not possible.
When I talk please try to take anything I say with a grain of salt- I am a chronic insomniac among other things, and highly prone to sleep-deprivation induced delusions.
At time of writing this I got some sleep the night before last so this should be fairly coherent and factual.
I am trans, identifying as male, while trying to become female. Unfortunately for me I want to have children as a woman, and current technology would seem to be incapable of a genetic-scale shift.
I am a collage student, and trying to go into genetics so I can... Fix this issue. I started reading novels when I was nine and then just never stopped.

The fact that my mother is a librarian and two of my three older sisters have worked as such is probably related to that.

I like creative video games, play airsoft when I can (ambush or shock-trooper) and clack my teeth when excited. Unfortunately past the two-and-a-half day mark without sleep I typically become delusional and am pretty much useless in regards to anything not related to books, the sole exception to my near-inability to remember things being literature likely due to obsession on my part.
I have been writing for a handful of years now though I am extremely reluctant to show anything I write to people I actually know because that's a good way to get a trip to a psychologist. I have been told I have a particular style of writing, as I have been heavily influenced by Eoin Colfer, Percy Jackson The Dresden Files, the Lensmen series, and A Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy.
Where psychological horror, a practical -if obsessive- approach to violence, and treating the protagonist as a chew-toy came from is something I have been asking myself for years. I have often been told my writing is 'deceptively dark' because of my penchant for systematically destroying the protagonist's lives while keeping a relatively humorous tone.

As for my name? I have an smooth, dull rock I somehow acquired years ago and have kept with me for years. Don't ask me why because I don't know. It's a flat grey oval of some stone or another that always seems cold to the touch but for some reason it's very important to me. Despite mentally viewing myself as a girl in the wrong body I have a fairly large utilitarian streak and have never understood most 'art' or the point of things like most jewelry or ostentatious clothes. Diamonds or gems are just shiny rocks- and so is obsidian, or granite. Shiny rocks are noticeable, but also completely pointless from a practical perspective most of the time.
Yet I am obsessed with literature. I get a buzz off reading a good story and have repeatedly binge-read parts of this site. Writing is an activity I tend to get so absorbed in I forget to eat or drink even when I'm on my meds. Something I spend countless hours on that, unlike video games I refuse to feel is ever pointless even on my worst days.
My writing is my impractical shiny rock and I love it every bit as much as the dull smooth stone on my desk.

For your consideration, a Shiny Rock

Welcome, glad you introduced yourself. I sometimes suffer from insomnia, but in my case it's may fault, due to over-fondness of certain soft drinks. Whateley is a good outlet sometimes, when you are looking at the 1AM on the clock. you punch out a paragraph or two of your characters and drop them into whatever micro-scene or non-canon adventure that is rambling through your head.

Don't be a stranger, drop by the forums, talk to the regulars and enjoy yourself. ^_^

Welcome to our little madhouse, straight jackets are in the cloaking room to the left, the nice young men in long white coats will help you with all your needs!

Welcome aboard.

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Welcome!